went to have my violin lesson. then got stuck in a massive traffic… to pass time i played with my cam…

heres dad driving like any happy dad would

madness light play…. pretty lights…


went back to my old school to see some old teacher and people.
amalia came back!!!! and met up with her today!!!! shes been in indonesia for 4 years…..missed her so very much!

my lunch from waitrose. i ate sushi with a spoon…. that was fun

me and amalia at brent cross after being tired of looking at shoes

is so great to see an old friend. had such a happy day. now i guess i have to get back to work.... what BUM


been watching a lot of Devil Beside You. addictive…..all mui’s
fault… i must say. my mandarine is getting pretty good now. someone
called and spoke mandarine asking for my mum and i replied back in full
mandarine… i even put on a taiwanese accent… wooohoo… [that guy…is…kind of cute….. main reason i keep watching it…]


today was horrible. massive bus crash right outside our college. some
people were injured. and one of the bus driver died….
just…..horrible.. =(
**found out from the news the bus driver DIDNT die!!! thank God!!!!!**

to make myself feel better i made a new layout…. 






in order to be filled i must first be broken, not proud.

and allow Him to fix me.

[make friends. stay friends]

£60 to do UKCAT… and end up with crappy results?! great….
it is goodbye medicine and hello living off benefits…. argh….

this is what God said to me in the summer….

I know that you have waited
So, so faithfully
I know that it’s been painful
But I want you to know
That you are so pure, so precious, so lovely
You have been crowned with immeasurable beauty
And heaven rejoices the moment you rise each day

So I sing over you a song of joy
Let the sun shine on your face
I’ll breathe new life, heal your wounds
Do you know I love you?
Do you know I love you?

I know that it may seem like

The storm will never cease

Know that ‘I AM’

Trust my sovereignty

I know my ways are hard to understand

But my plan is greater than you can imagine

Through all the darkness I’ve never left your side

i find it difficult to blog without pictures… i find it difficult to say thing when i dont have much to say…

nothing much happened today. but it was nice and sunny so i went out to the garden to snap a few photos

a man in a star….aint he cool??

told you. nice day! this picture makes me want to swim….. do you get that too or is it just me?

it was one of those wear-your-shorts day ^^

i found a love. greater than life itself. i also found love in a leaf =)
shadow play!!

that was fun wasnt it? 

the rest of the day was spent watching devil beside you….

really..AWWW cute cheesy stuff…

must watch more…

note to self *

i love my friends =) i love them and i need them. even if they dont want me….


Teach me your ways, oh Lord
and I will walk in your truth
Show me your paths, oh Lord
for I am devoted to you

Purify my heart’s desire
I long to be your servant
Give me an undivided heart
that I may fear your name
Give me an undivided heart
No other gods, no other love

No other gods before you th_13


current fashion obsessions

t-shirts . black cardigans . pearls

– want
i london t-shirt .


(to people with xangas)


th_13 whek…



what can i say?? what a night! you girls really did it this time! cant
even remember the last time we had a sleepover…. THANK YOU so much
for the whole surprise thing! it was really unexpected! well done. and i
loved EVERY single thing you guys got me!!!!! i enjoyed myself last
night alot. 2 cheesy girly films. doing our hair. noodles in the middle of the night.  mid-night chats *with weifong mainly
coz she was the only one who stayed awake with me* and then worship the
next morning =) ohhhh thank you SOOO much my dear girls! thank you for all the on going love and fellowship

 th_13 et joe ewic…


SWAROVSKI! man…. didnt know you guys would have such good taste… i
underestimated you…! the necklace is….how can i put this…..truly
beautiful and the booooook! hehehe just what i wanted. cant wait to
read it! i dont know how much i can thank God for each of you! oh and i
guess i want to thank you for looking after me in ss….. well you
didnt look after me… i looked after you…but anyway….=)
*oh ewic…now i know why you asked, if someone gave me some expensive ming-pai would i wear it…well i would! and i will =) *

 th_13 fudgie…

you heard me scream……lol i cant believe you did that!!! *scream
MORE*THANK YOU… i can not thank you enough for being my friend…my
cry friend…my nutty friend…my always-know-how-i-feel friend (etc) i
have to thank you MOREEEE for taking me down to memory lane! i still
havent finished reading the map. i want to save it. bits by bits each
day! and relive those never forgotten days!! we will forever build more
and more memories untill even the map of the world runs out of space.
love you SO MUCH sis ❤

 th_13 mui…

hahahah you got it! lol now i can have straight hair like EVERYDAY.
isnt that cool! ooo btw. happy birthday to you today! welcome to the
world of 18….! *oldness* thank you for counting down with me 12-12.
thank you for being the best mui EVER. thank you for always listening
to me…chat crap 24/7…. hehehehe i feel privileged to have a mui like
you! *i had my hair cut today….just thought you might want to know that…*

 th_13 sharon…

IS A POP-UP CARD* sharon the card is SO beautiful! just like you! when
i opened it. the cake popped out… so did my heart ❤ ” you are so
artistic is wonderful! coz you can make me pop up cards every year!!!
thank you for being my sor por & deen por… my sharon baron *forgot
the rest of your name =(* saranghae << is that how you spell it?!
doesnt matter you know i love you already 😉

 th_13 james…..
(if youi still read my xanga)

i wanted to LAUGH SO much when i was looking through it! you are a good
photographer you know! keep it up! thank you so much for the present. i
JUST LOVE IT! soooooooooo very much!!! thanks for taking me along to
your hike! and for building me a car…. im sure the car is on its way
right?! thank you for all the effort you put into this! and thank
will for the idea =) 


for posing with that! makes me laugh every time i look at it! thanks
for being you very goodlooking self even in rainbow ear muffs lol


that was the bestest 18th birthday week…EVER (ok i’ve only ever had
one 18th and only ever will have one…but you know what i mean) im
just so blessed to have you brothers and sisters! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!

they all use me as thier mistake on their way… everytime….
i’ll stay here just to help you learn….?


100_1885 making decisions that can effect my future…. is not easy. i dont know
what i m doing any more…. i feel very silly applying to medicine. so
now i am applying to pharmacy aswell..i’ve got a plan….but i dont
think it’ll work…but is too late to change… is too late now.

i want to trust in Him fully. but i am finding it very difficult. i am
prepared to fail in medicine. but i just want to give it a try. is that
me being stubborn? is this God’s way of saying no?? i cant tell… i
just cant tell….

it’s been
painful… His ways are hard to understand. but i know that His plans
are greater then i can imagine. i want to trust in His

i cant see whats ahead of me. i cant predict whats going to happen. is
out of my imaginations… maybe God will do a miracle. maybe He wont.
maybe He has something else for me…. i dont know. but i know… He is

i just want to sit back and see what God is going to do with me.

handing in my UCAS form tomorrow… my heart is not yet at peace…. so i
ask you brothers and sisters to remember me in your prayers…

give me the strenght for today and bright hope for tomorrow

special thanks to karen elaine and ewic….you guys have been immensely
supportive in the past week. you guys were always there when i needed
you the most. thank you ❤

i’ll go wherever you want me to go

no matter how difficult

for i know that you are always
here with me


ps.thank you duncan daiC & joe for my end of b’day count down….

IM NOW 18 . . .

18 years ago this thing was born……

18 years later…..she grew up…  and took up more space

e02   so old…so old….so VERY OLD

heheheh thank you duncan daiC and joe for counting down with me!


continuing with  my mandy obsession…..with a photo blog!

my little black cam

playing with the bubble machine at church today

stuck in traffic so i took pictures of apartments…they look really flat….

on my way home from college waiting for a bus

meet princess 8…. heehee my finger puppet friend

she goes to church every week too

here she is hanging out in my kitchen

haha what a stupid blog….im sorry….=P

im becoming one of those…
as-long-as-you-are-happy- i-m-happy-too kind of people………

maybe is the ageing thing??
am i growing up?!


i had a ‘normal’ face / my nose sticks up / i had droppy eyes
i had a thin face / i had a fat face / i had fat lips

phew…im glad God made me just the way i am….
attractive or what…¬.¬ ? [IM SORRy about my face….]

4 more days untill i turn REALLY old >.<“
[OH  photography love]


* everybody. this is joe’s reponse picture to my last blog. you be the judge………. =P


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