ANOTHER LESSON.

after reading jons blog on his offer (well done jon btw!!) i started crying….
for like….absolutely ages… dont get me wrong im VERY happy for him and
everything… lol is just i thought about my own situation. its really hard
when everyone around you have at least one offer to the course they want to do.
and i still have none… every time i think about it my eyes go blurry and
water starts to pour out….

so i went for a shower coz i didnt want to scare my parents with my sobbing. i
couldnt stop….  i kept thinking how horrible it is to want something so
much yet it seems like you just cant get it. and how everyone else is getting
it….but me. yes deep inside i know that nothing is impossible through God. i
know that God has His plans for me. i dunno… i guess i was finding it really
hard to trust him fully.

but i could feel God calling me to be obedient. as hard as it was. i told him
i will be. and i want him to have his way. i still feel a bit angry and annoyed
that he has placed this desire in me to do medicine yet hes making it all so
difficult. but im going to let him have his way.

i felt like a little girl…crying to her daddy coz she cant have her sweet and
still saying ‘ok daddy…. you decide’

i’ve learnt to set my emotion apart from my heart. i FEEL frustrated, i feel
like saying… STUFF IT ALL. IM GONNA GIVE UP COZ I’LL NEVER GET IT. but my
heart and soul say….no..i must carry on. I must place my hope in the one and
only.  

haaahha this blog is pretty confusing….but it makes sense to me. and i want
to note this down so i’ll remember what he has done for me!

a song came to mind:

I’ve had questions, without answers

I’ve known sorrow, i have known pain

but theres one thing, that i’ll cling to



you are faithful, Jesus your true


when hope is lost, i’ll call you saviour

when pain surrounds, i’ll call you healer

when silence falls, you’ll be the song within my heart

in the lone hour, of my sorrow

through the darkest night of my soul

you surround me, and sustain me

my defender, forever more

when hope is lost, i’ll call you saviour

when pain surrounds, i’ll call you healer

when silence falls, you’ll be the song within my heart


I will praise you, i will praise you



when the tears fall, still i will sing to you

i will praise you, Jesus praise you

Through the suffereing still i will sing

new attitude.

i m sure it would be really fun to date. its interesting when someone
is chasing you, or you chasing after someone… and then to find that they like you too…and bam…dating…. everything
suddenly becomes exciting. you can thinking about the other person all
day. talk to them on the phone all day….continuous texting all day.. some people even
go OUT there with the whole dating thing by dating people far away…
thinking geographical limitations will not be a problem coz you ‘love’
eachother…. making everything sweeter than real life

yah…for some it works….fair enough…

we often have the attitude of ‘if i dont tell him/her i like them and
ask him/her out. it’ll be too late….then im gonna have no one to
marry and die alone!!’ hahah how many times have i said that to
myself??  but it only just hit me that when we think like that we
are focusing purely on OURSELVES. seeking for OUR needs instead of
putting others need before ours. sometimes two people are together
just so that they can get what they want and what they think they need
out of the relationship. and what…they last….1 year? 2 years? what
do you do then after you have gotten everything you wanted out of the
relationship?

is so easy in any relationship including friendship to focus on
eachother. 2 people walking towards eachother when they should be
walking facing the same direction- towards holiness. purity and love

how many girlfriends.boyfriends are you going to say ‘i love you’ to before you marry a completely different person?

how many ‘forever’s are you going to promise before you spend forever with someone else?

i think is time for me personally to forget about what I WANT and care more about what other needs

‘i kissed dating goodbye’ sounds like such an extreme book… but its speaking to me loud and clear 😀

is hard but with a changed attitude and by focusing on god (and with
help from special people hehehehe) . i know i can guard my heart
i still remember the 1st time i heard about the book i swore to
NEVER read it…is like… i’ve never even dated before so why should i kiss it
goodbye??!! haahhahah now i wanna live by every word it says. irony


after failing chemistry test oh-so-proudly…. i met up with kaboom in brent cross

man…i really DO love shopping!! H&M under 20mins i have already
picked out 4 items and they didnt even come up to £11!! im just too
amazing….


we went and tried on some dresses. thats always fun

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‘karen you done yet? im sitting on the floor taking pics of myself…’

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‘OOO i’ll join you….’

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im always do this >> …. i know….

and how can we NOT stop by the apple store now??

that place is so fun. an hour seemed like minutes in there!

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HOW TO REVISE

exams. school work…. can be very stressful

so let me show you the CORRECT way to revise…

STEP 1. paint your nails (the flowery GOTH way)                   

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STEP 2. call/ text a friend
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STEP 3. get out camera and play with ruler

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STEP 4. get out camera and play with calculator

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STEP 5. get out camera and play with glasses
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STEP 6. (optional) take out notes…

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STEP 7. (optional) maybe consider writing notes down

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these steps have been proven by experts (me) to guarantee E’s

however. these steps alone might not be effective if you are smart

for a more effective and direct method…seek the comfort of your bed


i wish you all the very best
i shall return at the end of the day
to let you know how my…’revision day’ went

 


AS PREDICITED…. REVISION-DAY WAS A FAILURE


WASTED ONE WHOLE DAY…..

constant headache, wont go away
constant heartache….wont go away

i’ve found my PERFECT wedding cake!!!!!



BORN A BLONDE. GONE A
BLONDE

sunday was a very long day but i have enjoyed myself. A LOT!

so here we are after church…mission- primark shopping. food voucher eating


floor fountain. is like a baby somerset house….
was a shame my mongolian boots were NOT waterproof

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jon got us all BLONDE tees. we…really are blonde…

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reflection. is this real…??
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at mikes house

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BLONES ARE MORE FUN. BELIEVE ME!!

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the bento boyz with blonde dad and mum

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again. but with a bit of style this time

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grandpa jon and grandma howan
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my camera does these little pictures for videos….
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mike is fun when hes dead! you can pierce his ears. cream him and blow dry him
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super star with underwear being thrown at him
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when blondes turn gangsta…..
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I MY BLONDES!!

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THINGS IN LIFE I WISH TO HAVE…

    • a REALLY stunning face
    • a lovable personality
    • pretty hands
    • curly long eye lashes
    • blonde hair
    • nice nose
    • the perfect body
    • a baby brother/sister
    • a mansion with indoor and outdoor pools. 100+ rooms
    • something that im proper good at. like a real talent
    • a bf or a prince. which ever one comes 1st
    • perfect A grades for everthing
    • a nice sweet comforting voice
    • smart, fully functioning brain
    • a polaroid camera
    • good english skills
    • the ability to make people listen to me
    • the ability to dance. ballet and stuff
    • a bedroom that can see both the sunrise and sunset
    • a thinner face
    • perfect vision
    • all the clothes i want
    • double bed
….and the list goes ON



but those are things in life i DO NOT need coz i have Jesus! phew….


and anyway. everything i have already i dont deserve.
but at the same time if anybody can get me those stuff above.
feel free to! 

i am SO bored………


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dont get why people pay to get a hole in their body just so that they
can hang a piece of jewelery on… but anyhow, its fun. so i did just
that today.

it can become addictive…. (in char’s case…. very addictive XD) i think i like the PAIN….. ? 

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OH YES and i’ve decided on my new years resolution…
(a bit late. but better late than never)

TO STUDY THE BIBLE.
last years one was to read the Bible in a year. done that… 
but now i need to study it.

glasses pigi love you pig

i AM bored….

* 2006 PHOTO CALANDER

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a year of changes. fun. love. sadness. new things. hardship. fellowship. friendships

the year i GREW UP



28th- CAKE BAKE

went over to india’s house to make chocolate brownies! yummmmm.

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30th- DAY OUT

went out with fudge wic and ellis. aw the FUNFUNFUN! ikkyusan for lunch. went to like….loads of places…

didnt buy anything apart from ewic…whos rich… troc. the mad colour
game AGAIN! we won loads…. thanks to the colour WHITE. got some
animal keyrings and bouncy balls! then we got our FREE chinese drinks
and GREEN TEA BISCITE! we love them loads. oh yes and fudgie kept spotting people that we know/not-really-know =P


then to u.adrians house…chats…photos…bounced the balls…..food. IT WAS NICE

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31st- SUNDAY

didnt go service….just couldnt… so went to cafe to watch char and shaz eat instead ^^

baptism service. so happy for them all! sat there on the steps… so little room for movement
jason leehom died… and i met terry ❤ all thanks to jon…….¬.¬


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1st- FELLOWSHIP

what can i say? it was fantastic to have a time of fellowship, sharing, worship, prayer and yet FUN.

weifong we missed you deeply! we even gave a time to just think about you… HAHAHAHA

so blessed to have you guys. a super good start to 2007! LOVE YOU ALL ❤ 

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i find it funny how the theme of this photo was to balance the pillow on our heads and somwhow we all held on to it instead. only ewic did what we were meant to do…lol and i love the fact that jon is well…. in the photo but NOT at the same time…


 

HAVE A GOOD YEAR !