ME?

a lot of the time i feel very small….

very boring…

very useless…

not to mention stupid…

rude….

annoying….

insensitive….

other people are always better and greater than me. they are always right and im always wrong
i want to love myself for who i am. i want people to love me for who i am
but sometimes im not too sure WHO I AM.
i only have certainty of my identity in Christ. so that i will cling on to

“Love your neighbor as yourself.”
help me Lord to love myself so that i can love others

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THINKING….



i want to do my work but my mind is a bit of a mess at the moment… so
i thought xanga might help….. i have bo idea what i want to type here
but i’ll give it a go…

1st of all…. the same thing keeps recurring in my dreams…do they
reflect what i want? or is it coz i spend way to long thinking about it
during the day? there is something rather crazy about dream in my
opinion….

what is this i am feeling? i am so afraid i will mess up i wont let
myself feel… but i dont want to be feasting on feelings when God is
more than just feelings….maybe im scared of getting hurt? i seem to
not think God can provide for me…. why do i feel as though i am
waiting on something better? waiting for the ‘next stage’ of my life.
the season of life i am in right now is a good one…. He has given me a life NOW…
why am i not embracing this season of life?? >.<
 

i dont often initiate conversations on msn… that is because i fear if
the conversation is boring it’ll be my fault. i dont want to take up
someones time by talking to them if they dont really want to talk to
me…. i wonder sometimes how important i am to people? i want to feel
that people around me need me, i want to know that i have a place in
their heart….  so many insecurities…. nut it’s ok. Gods working
on it! if only i would completely LET Him..would make things easier…

there is actually nothing going on in my current life that is
WRONG..there is nothing wrong…everything is going alright. im just
filled with a lot of thoughts and emotions… i m slightly lost in my
own little world….

simply to the cross i cling
letting go of all earthly things
for jesus you will NEVER fail

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