“A women’s heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her”

guys these days are no longer willing to fight and defend the heart of those women….
they have bigger plans…..

to steal and claim their hearts, to destroy their purity
and worse of all…. to pull them away from the one relationship that matters the most-
the relationship of the woman and her Prince- Jesus

but i still believe the heart of men is GOOD. coz God made them that way. they are just trapped in the enemies lies. and same goes to women….

we REALLY do need You…..
i need someone to defend this heart of mine


Proverbs 31:25-30

“She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.”

reading this passage makes me feel ashamed. i am anything BUT ‘the wife of noble character’. im far from what i am supposed to be…. *sigh* in my heart you can find bitterness, anger, jealousy, pride etc all in LARGE doses…

i tried to give my heart to love…. but i feel unappreciated. my love gone to waste. but does that mean im only loving to be appreciated…? that is not my intension…. i try to love without making it obvious. but its getting tiring… to the point i dont even know how to answer the question ‘how are you?’. which is ok considering that question is rarely asked intensionally.

i cant help but be a little angry… why does it feel like i am giving and giving when everything i do seems unappreciated? my head screams ‘GIVE UP’ everytime i love. maybe im just not getting this right…this whole loving people without asking anything in return…. maybe im just not very good at that??

mothers day today. im reminded of all the mothers out there…. how many of them feel unappreciated? i know my mum does….i give her every reason to feel that way. HOW do these women go on….? how do they still wake up every morning to make breakfast, wash the dishes, go to work, pick up the kids, cook dinner…..

it hurts me when someone i call a friend would ditch me everytime someone new and fresh comes along…. it breaks my heart when i love them and want them to grow in christ but they seem to care about other things…. it makes me feel worthless when they never even ask ‘how are you’ and really mean it….

so how much more will it hurt if  my son slams the door in my face…when my daughter screams at me…when my husband ignores me…how many more tears will i cry when my family treats me like slave?

the wife of a noble character…? God, looks like You still have a LOT of work to do here!!

show me how to carry on when the world tells me that the love i have to give is worthless, for i know that no one can understand but You