Psalm 139: 23
‘search me, o God and know my heart. test me and known my anxious thoughts. see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.’

Search me Oh God
Search me and find
Any way in me that does not reflect Your purity
Refine me Oh God
In the fire of Your gaze
That I might be holy in all of my ways
Take me deeper Lord
Draw me closer Lord…

Give me a heart after Your own heart
Give me a mind that is pure and pleasing to You
Fill me with love
With Your power and Your joy
That this world might see You in me

i am wrong is so many ways…… thank you for being patient with me Lord



I’m begging You, to help me see
You’re all I want, You’re all I need
Oh, satisfy me Lord

In me, oh lord, can you create
A pure heart cuz I’m afraid
That I just might run back to the things I hate

Im trying so hard
to stop trying so hard
just let you be who You are
who You are in me

Psalm 90:14

 Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love,
       that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

im being pulled in 100 different directions. which one is You?

im lying here on the ground waiting for You to say ‘get up’

im still waiting for Your strength

i need this strength that  i KNOW You have

i need Your strength  to abandon myself, to pour out to others



i have found the song that describes exactly how i feel… it expresses exactly how i am better than i can ever express….wow..

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You’re making me
Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands

Somewhere between my faith and my plans

Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You’re by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I’m caught in the middle

thank You for still loving me when im caught in the middle. thak You for waiting for me…. i know which side i want to be, i know which said You want me to be.

how do i get there?